After more than a week, I am slowly dipping my toes back into Cyberland- checking emails, handling business, looking back out at the world to see what is going on. It’s been a nice, quiet week since July 23rd, and I’m in no particular hurry to jump back in to my old life just yet.
July 23rd. My line of demarcation from my Old Life to What is Now My Life.
July 23rd. The day my daughter was born. The day everything changed.
I know that sounds melodramatic. It’s also completely true. Everything has changed. It’s like someone picked my entire world off of its foundation, and just set the whole thing back down somewhere new. I think I’m on track to hit every single parenting cliche that I can think of.
I stare at her while she sleeps.
I am content to be at home all day. Whereas I used to get restless at home, now I just don’t.
I use a different voice when I speak to her. It’s high-pitched and sing-songy and I don’t care who hears me- if it makes her give me a gummy smile, then the world is alright.
I can’t watch the news right now, cause any story about kids makes me cry.
The list could go on and on, but I think Babycenter.com sums it up quite nicely:
42 Things that Change When You Have a Baby
The Details (as much as I’m going to talk about anyway)
Eva was born on July 23rd at 8:30 am, after 28 hours of labor. Yes, 28 hours. A 6th of the Earth was created in less time than it took to get her here (thank you Genesis). My husband was absolutely wonderful throughout the entire process, and helped encourage me to make it through some very tough moments. He stuck it out through more medical procedures in one day than he (or I) have seen or had to have done in our entire lives- without passing out or running from the room. Which, I must point out, I totally would have done if I’d been able to run. Totally worth it in every way, but I shudder to imagine what birth was like before modern medicine.
Our daughter is about 7 lbs and very healthy. She’s a chill little baby, and so far doesn’t cry much. Of course, that could partially be because she’s not awake much yet. If she’s not eating, she’s sleeping- and sometimes she manages to do both at the same time, a talent of which I am in slight awe. She is, by all objective standards, the most gorgeous baby ever, with light brown hair and grey eyes. We’ll see where that goes in the years to come. I was sort of expecting a raven-haired child, but Life is funny that way.
Our time at Northside Hospital was amazing! Between the nurses and the specialists who came to help us make sure we know what to do, along with the saintly nursing staff who put up with two typical first-time parents (read: skittish, hyper-aware, and protective) with class and skill, the entire stay was a welcome chance to slowly adjust to taking care of a newborn while healing and resting. By the time we came home, we weren’t nearly as scared to handle her as we were at first. Baby steps.
Now we’re home and taking it one day at a time. Each day is different- she’s changing so fast!
I mentioned earlier that it seems like my whole life has changed. True enough, and far beyond the more obvious things I listed. I’m also less interested in checking email or business or anything to do with daily life. Oh, I’ll still do it, but I’m trying to prep friends and family that my response time to everything from texts to emails to Facebook is now going to slow dramatically. And updates will likely be baby-related. Another parenthood cliche to check off my list. Don’t worry, I’ll try not to overshare…too much. 🙂
So, to sum up, the last week has been amazing, and although I look forward to getting back to my social life in some form eventually, right now I’m enjoying a new pace and getting to know my daughter. Parenthood is everything I thought it would be AND MORE! Life is good.